You’re My One and Only- The Transfer

I think I did a good job keeping my emotions in check about this transfer.  I was so nervous that we were going to get there and they would tell us the embryo stopped growing.

After I drank my 32 oz of water and took my Valium, we got to the clinic and were led back by the nurse.  We then changed into our sexy baby garb.

We had the same doctor from our retrieval.  She handed us a picture of the embryo and told us it was 4 cells.

“I thought it was supposed to be between six and eight,” I said.

“Yes, it should be.  It’s a little slower growing, but I have seen people get pregnant with 4-celled embryos,” she said.  I wonder if that’s in the Fertility Doctor’s Guide of What to Say to Infertiles.  We asked her why I could have had 5 mature follicles on the US and get 5 eggs retrieved, to only have one mature egg.

She said she didn’t really know why that happened.  That the HCG trigger doesn’t always work sometimes.  “Usually we have you speak with your regular doctor about that.”  Her awkwardness was radiating off her.

I took the picture from her and she walked out of the room.  And you know what?  Sure I spent a few minutes ranting to Chris about how I shouldn’t expect any different, and that we should just suck out all my eggs and light them on fire for all the good they do.  But, I refused to cry.  I refused to wallow.  I have a responsibility to this one embryo to give it a fighting chance.  Crazier things have happened.

Have any of you read or saw the movie, Divergent?  Remember the cute guy who was the main character with Tris?

Whoa.  What was I talking about again?  Too much hotness.

 I was trying to come up with a name for my embryo.

Everyone.  Meet Four.  Sure he may only be 4 cells, but he’s Bad. Ass.  Also, am I the only person who thinks he kind of looks like a butt?  I’m sorry, Four.  That was mean. 

The transfer went smoothly.  I remember the embryologist handing him through the window and then nurse telling me, “Ok, we just need to get your embryo from the incubator.”

“He’s in an incubator!?” Pretty sure I squeed at that.  I mean, come on.  The cuteness.

So I watched them do the transfer and then we chilled there alone for ten minutes.  Then it was the recovery room for another 20.  Look, I wore my lucky socks.

Then we got to leave and I sprawled out in the back seat of the car while Chris drove us home.  I felt like an illegal immigrant huddling under the blanket yelling curses at Chris every time he slammed his breaks on, sending me almost rolling off the seat.

And now I am home.  About to eat macaroni and cheese from Noodles and Company.  Because Four wants it.  Not even an 8-celled embryo yet and already making demands.

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Fingers crossed!


Ha! Good grief, I love you! Four- so perfect! Hoping with you, Risa! Enjoy that Mac & Cheese and make sure Four gets any other items he wishes!


Good luck!! I hope this is it! GO FOUR!

Kandie Walker

Yay! Rest up momma!


FOUR! Love it!!! Hope he grows up to be just as badass (and minus the daddy issues)!!

Sarah J

Ooh I heart Four! What a perfect name for your little one. A fighter. I think you're spot on to focus your energy on your Four and not what could have or should have been, as success is definitely possible! I'll be thinking of you. Enjoy some downtime!

And sorry about your encounter with the RE. That awkwardness and inability to explain thoroughly is exactly why we changed, and I am SO SO grateful for your recommendation last year. We couldn't have been happier with him.

Lisa {Amateur Nester}

Love that you named the embie! I had my transfer yesterday, too! Fingers crossed for you, girl!

Amanda Eisenberg

I'm with the others on hoping your Four doesn't grow up with the same daddy issues…tho nothing wrong with a healthy fear of heights 🙂 I'm still waiting to see what's going to happen, I hate waiting!


Fingers crossed for Four!! He sounds like a little bad ass already AND he's got good taste in foods 😛


glad it's over – hope you get lots of rest now!!!


FX!! Hugs!

Jennifer T

This is so cute! I hope Four is outgrowing his/her name and just continues to bring more cuteness into your life 🙂


I love little Four already! It only takes one. I know we say and hear that a lot, but it is the truth and I hope it works out for yours that way too! Hugs!!!


Go Four!


I feel I've beed fed some lines from that book too! Hoping baby four delivers one big dream!

Baby On Mind

Congrats on being PUPO!


Fingers crossed for Four and hoping for you!


Sending lots of good luck vibes to you and Four!!!!!!!!


Four has the most awesome Mommy for giving in to his dietary demands. 🙂

Sending you all kinds of happy, pregnant thoughts!

Melissa Long

AW! I'm sure the Four will be much happier all snuggly in his Mama and he'll start growing like crazy! Sooo many prayers!


Yay for being PUPO! I love how you named him/her Four. My fingers are crossed for you, chica!!


Got my fingers crossed for you, Risa! Good Luck in your 2WW! Now to come up with names that you can incorporate "four" into once he/she is born. 🙂


Rooting for you and for FOUR!


Your optimism is so refreshing. I am rooting for you and Four, slow and steady is all you need.


Wishing you the best for this baby to stick.

Non Sequitur Chica

Come on Four!!


I found your blog yesterday, and I wanted to let you know that I am praying for you. I'm on gonal-f in preparation for an IUI cycle, and I am tired and need to pray for someone's fertility besides my own. So, I'm sending lots up for you today!


Any early 1 week symptoms?


I am anxiously awaiting news! Cheering for you!