Thoughts on Motherhood

I had a lot of qualms about this post.  I have already seen some posts on Facebook infertility groups saying how much they hate Mother’s Day and how excluded they feel.

“Mother’s Day reminds me of how I am not a mother yet, and everyone has to rub it in my face.”  That’s been the gist of the posts.  So I am sitting here now, trying to write this post, gritting my teeth, holding my breath, hoping that Fertiles will still read this and not think, well here comes the whining.

How do I feel about Mother’s Day?  To tell you the truth, I have felt a little sad these past four years, watching my friends, family and acquaintances become mothers without me.  But Mother’s Day to me was always about my mom, and making this day about her.  It was about picking out cards, giving her a gift, taking pictures with her and my sisters.

Yes, Mother’s Day always reminded me of what I didn’t have.  That I wasn’t a mother.  But celebrating my own mom was always at the forefront.  The woman who loved me unconditionally, who loved me before I was even born.  The one who would do anything for me. Would give her life for me.  The woman who had big plans for my life.  Who always tried to make my dreams come true.  The one who always dried my tears and told me everything would be ok.

And now I sit here, on a king-sized bed in a hotel in Iowa on vacation, watching my husband eat his body weight in Pringles, and think, why not me?

What about the mother whose child has died?  Is she still considered a mother?

What about the mother who felt life move within her, and then no more?  Can she still be a mother?

What about the mother whose daughter is estranged from her?  Is she still called Mom?

What about the woman who has never had a child?  Who has never experienced a pregnancy?  Surely she isn’t a mother.

After all, what is a mother, but one who loves their children unconditionally, who loved them before they were even born. The one who would do anything for their child.  Would give their lives without a second thought to protect their child.  The one who has big dreams for their child.  One who dries her own tears, and tells herself that everything will be ok.

Does a woman have to hold a child in her arms, to be a mother?

This weekend, I celebrate my mom.

I celebrate my mother-in-law, who raised a respectful, kind, and devastatingly handsome son to give to me.

I celebrate moms who chase their children around the backyard.

I celebrate the moms who felt the joy of a positive pregnancy test for a fleeting moment in time.

I celebrate the moms who had to bear the unimaginable pain of losing a child too soon.

I celebrate the moms whose babies are still waiting to come to Earth.

I celebrate the moms with children in Heaven.

We are all mothers.

Happy Mother’s Day.

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Happy Mother's Day to all of you who are celebrating the day empty handed due to a loss or because your child has yet to make it to your arms. You are just as much a mother as the woman who has 12 kids tagging along after her. You are a mother in your heart, you go through the pain of treatments and negatives, but you are already a mother putting forth more as a mother to bring your children here, than so many others. Babyloss moms, you have endured the most tragic and important job a mother could ever… Read more »


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Impatiently Waiting

This is great. I see a lot of posts about hating Mother's day as well and I respect that, but I don't feel the way they do. While it stings that I won't be getting a card from my child that my husband helped pick out…because I am not a mother… I don't think of this day like that. This day, Mother's Day, is about my mom. It always has been. And even when I am am mom, if I am a mom, I will still make this day about her (and me of course). 😉

Have a great day tomorrow!


Melanie, this is beautiful! And Happy Mother's Day to you! I will definitely check out your blog!


You will be a mother, dear. In some way or another. Have a great day tomorrow yourself. I hope you guys get a chance to do something fun together.


This is so beautiful! I always think of Mother's Day being about my own mother and my grandmother. And my very favorite aunt. This is so sweet, I love it.


LOVE this. I have never had a huge problem with Mother's Day either – maybe felt a little wistful, but not significantly more than any other day of my life. It was always just about my mom, not about me.

And yes, even women who have never gotten pregnant can be mothers. I truly believe what you said, that there are "moms whose babies are still waiting to come to Earth." So Happy Mother's Day to YOU, my dear. I hope it is filled with love and lots of great photos with your mom and sisters.

Sarah J

I love this: "I celebrate the moms whose babies are still waiting to come to Earth." While I suppose I don't necessarily feel like one, I do appreciate that those of us trying so hard to become one deserve some celebration or acknowledgement as well. And definitely those who have lost. I found myself sitting down today to write and at first felt compelled to start complaining about the holiday because I was feeling down about my situation. But then I thought of my mother, and my mother-in-law, and remembered the true importance of the day. It's still painful to… Read more »


I completely agree with Melanie. And I also agree with your take on Mother's Day. It is my firm belief that giving birth does not make one a mother. There are far too many women you never birth a child (let alone achieve pregnancy) you are amazing mothers to children and young adults who need so desperately to be loved and given a chance in life. The ALI community is filled with women life this and many of them have been more of a mother to me than my own biological mother. Tomorrow, as you celebrate your mother and all… Read more »


I agree. All those women (including you) are mothers. Well said!


Such a great post! You, your mom and sisters are adorable!!


Beautiful post… very well-said. Happy (belated) Mother's Day to you- you ARE a mother.


Lovely post and well said!


Beautiful post and so well said.


Yup! And Mommies of fur babies 🙂


What a gracious, lovely post. I also really appreciated your Facebook status. On mother's day, I pulled up my newsfeed and three statuses in a row talked about infertility (one was yours). It was really great to see that.


Beautiful, Risa. Seriously. And I love the picture of you with your sisters and Mom 🙂